THE JOYS AND PAINS OF LOVE: Part 2. By Osheku A. Isaac

While I was writing,I quickly remembered that I had a discussion with Abundance sometime ago, in that discussion we agreed I will live Lagos state for Edo to see her, I imagined seeing the one I feel she is the love of my life after a long period of desperation again.  What memory would that be, I prayed that day come to pass with a good news from her. Now to accept me as her intimate, to be her soul mate and a man she will love forever. To me, I know deep within me that I love her. Like the literal writers wrote 'the fear of the unknown is higher than the fear for the known. So I was scared of the results ahead, if she will ever disdain me from being with her.

Though, I am now glad she requested for a copy of my piece of diary which I'm preparing.  I had called her to seek her consent before I forward it to her but all my attempt prove not avail as she never picked my calls anymore. I was wondering what's happening again. Could it be that I have offended her again? I asked myself. I could not provide any answer to that. Deep within me  I know I have done no wrong.

I kept calling and she picked my call during a calm evening, this time, the line was breaking, I couldn't hear her clear. She sound like one in the middle of a deep ocean, different sound rated under the literal onomatopoeia arose, as apt as I am, I thought I should sing the old lyrics, my heart was ached and my eyes like the Lula blue. She finally told me she's already sleeping. I bear it within myself but not happy with her that night. 'Why can't she just manage to say hello Zik and smile for me?' I soliloquize. I was sad through the night.

The next morning was a beautiful Saturday, I was awake, her picture reflected in my heart, I could not take my devotion instead, I am now devoting my devotion to her. I picked my phone to call her again, I thought it was too early to call her line, I became very skeptical in my dealings with her. I resisted the call, I feel bad that I could not speak with her that early morning, then I quickly realized my devotion and take it upon.

I quickly take a shower and left home to a printing press centre where I need to pick up a job. I was a freelancer, my client had giving me a job that needed to be done before the following day. The job pressure was on me coupled with the pressure coming from Abundance the beautiful soul.  I finished from the press and returned home.

The first thing I did after taking a little water was to call her on phone. The phone rang, I was expecting goodness from my admired queen, the one I cherish most all the time. She picked my call and exclaimed 'Hello Zak,' I am on bike. I am going to Church.' I received another pain. Why must she give me excuses at all the time of my attempt to talk to her? But I was glad because she said she was going to Church. Gladly knowing Abundance over the time, she's a Church goer and lover of Christ. If there's anything that drew my attention to her it's her Christlike nature. Nothing convinced me more than that being a woman I see both in dreams and real life to be my supporter and life partner. I have too many plans on how wee would bring our future to pass. I want to do everything I do with her ass she's a woman I can vie and dedicate all I have to. I know she will not return my call but I hoped to receive same call.

In eagerness, I strive to call her at 9:16 pm, she was busy on call. I could imagine she is communicating with another admirer who may not love her like I do. This was my thoughts.

I jettisoned my self from that thought, jerking some belongings in preparation for the next day,  talking absolute poppycock in poorness, sound like the whinny of an horse, I took some yummy to rest the case of my heart as caused by Abundance. She still left me untold.

Like in my private prayers, I prayed always got her success. I ever wanted anything about her to be successful. Most time, I wish I have the whole world and just declare the whole goodness for her alone. She's so worth everything every good human desire. So I always pray a good day come to reveal things to the Choice of woman I wanted. God had revealed to me in series of time that she's the woman I'll settle with in life. In each of these series of revelation, getting her in the revelation was not always easy for me. I find it difficult to get her always and finally God told me, son, what you ever wanted you have gotten. This is simply because of your endurance and the stableboy you are. 

While I received this revelation, the reality now became rougher and tougher. It was like hell for me. I cried inwardly. At that time, I was not financially bouyant enough to take care of a woman of my dream. Although, I knew Abundance would never ask for money because of her kind of person. She's such beautifully reserved lady I have ever met and I never pray to see another. If there's ever anyone better than her, I'll chose Abundance over and over....

In reminisce, I recall how I and her brother used to be childhood friends. We would play and call each other unprintable names. Realizing the joys of the then and later was heartwarming to me. Not minding the pains of love I was passing through. Though certainly, I ever gaze at the revelation God gave me that I'll will triumph over the trials of getting her to wife. Then I said to myself I'll push forward.

Moving forward, Abundance was a student in same institution where I graduated from. Studying one of the secretariat studies. That field I know so well that she's gonna gain much from in the future. She was brilliant not minding the kind preliminary educational background. I could detest her ways; so cool to be with. 

Seeing her each time was heart lifting to me. Guess what happened after our last meeting

To be continued (next weekend)